There's never a dirth fr misery wen ur around me...

AAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhh...omg..hw much shit cn go wrong in one week???jeez..im so friggin drained...im had it..im on d verge of saying dat i neva wanna go 2 skol...evrything seems so wrong!!!...nd anything thats screwd..well im d inevitable cause of it..apparently.All im seemingly doin is driftin into some kinda oblivious world i dnt even wanna go to.Poor Angel...talks to me evry nite to make sure i feel better...but then stupid me has to end up crying..den i disconnect nd fall asleep..hehe..poor gurl waits fr hrs aftr thinkin im gonna call bak...seriously!!evrytime i cry i fall asleep almost immediately..evn widout my knowin..funny huh?i was wonderin...mayb tear glands secrete sumthin othr dan salt water which induses sleep..hmmm

Ive been so fkin lethargic(here d word "lethargic" being a majr undrstatemnt)...get up feeling doped...exhausted..just plain frail.Paranoia's grippin me more than ever!!im rippin my hair off in in frustration...

Basically it comes down to this-Me paranoid..me crazy..me so confused...me cryin/pissd...angel yellin and comfortin me alternatively..angel also confused...chanchal left..evry1 in sad state..Ridhi's happy she left...me doomed fr boards..i dnt think ny tchr wud b better dan her now to teach accountancy....tanya umm i dunno...tanya hates suju..me cnt stnd suju..angel HATES suju...all in all no one liks suju...me got new hair do nd cut hair last week...no one evn notices..me disappointed...Himanshu's stayin in same skol...me happy abt only that...Prici gives bad task fr us...to paint nd decorate d 2 notice boards in d class...me wasting studyin time doing art work fr skol...evry1 else in class throwin paint on each other while i slog to paint 2 boards...me yellin at class...science sectn copies idea..me mega-pissd...me do d same idea...now science section mega pissed...makes excuses fr stealin our idea..lol...sriya bunkin skol...shreya kinda pissd at me..shreya kinda missin Maggot boy...skol hires new tchr just fr HOCKEY...d guy seems very nice..also seperate tchr fr martial arts..me pissd at y skol decides to improve d year im leavin..." cnt do nythin else but sulk..highest ISC score in commrce 78 in skol..very demeaning..me dicouraged...Teju's hair is a disaster now...Ridhi's luv life's going down d drain...mine's probably GONE...Shashanth dancing lik weirdo..its not bad fr once..shashanth tuk dance lessons in hols..one person hu did smthin constructive!!!...Anshul..jus dumb..anshul mad at Ridhi..Ridhi mad at Anshul..Angel is playin "chumchi" between d 2..lol...angel lafs..i laf...ridhi lafs..tanya lafs...we all laf...but wat r we lafing abt in d first place???

U see..dats y im confused..nd dats not evn half of it...im a wreck... currently swearin my head off...as of now..i dnt think it cud get ny worse...mayb i said it too soon..ARRGGHH..."death..death where art thou...i pray thee to come and take me away frm my misery forever...."...wishful thinkin huh?

“Tears In Heaven” -Eric Clapton
Would you know my name

if I saw you in heaven?Would it be the same

if I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...

Would you hold my hand

if I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand

if I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way through night and day

'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven...

Time can bring you down,

time can bend your knees

Time can break your heart,

have you begging please...begging please

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure

And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven...

Would you know my name

if I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the sameif I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven..."

Now thats somethin i wud labell-"a thing of beauty is a joy forever"...

Listening to "Hurt"..by Christina Aguilera...video reminds me of dad...aaww.sniff....wen will this come to an end...hw much more...

Check d pic..tuk it last nite aftr sm stupid party..traffic..in Blore...at 1:00am...!!!proposterous!hehe...i kinda likd d pic tho..tuk it by fluke...lol