There's never a dirth fr misery wen ur around me...

AAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhh...omg..hw much shit cn go wrong in one week???jeez..im so friggin drained...im had it..im on d verge of saying dat i neva wanna go 2 skol...evrything seems so wrong!!!...nd anything thats screwd..well im d inevitable cause of it..apparently.All im seemingly doin is driftin into some kinda oblivious world i dnt even wanna go to.Poor Angel...talks to me evry nite to make sure i feel better...but then stupid me has to end up crying..den i disconnect nd fall asleep..hehe..poor gurl waits fr hrs aftr thinkin im gonna call bak...seriously!!evrytime i cry i fall asleep almost immediately..evn widout my knowin..funny huh?i was wonderin...mayb tear glands secrete sumthin othr dan salt water which induses sleep..hmmm

Ive been so fkin lethargic(here d word "lethargic" being a majr undrstatemnt)...get up feeling doped...exhausted..just plain frail.Paranoia's grippin me more than ever!!im rippin my hair off in in frustration...

Basically it comes down to this-Me paranoid..me crazy..me so confused...me cryin/pissd...angel yellin and comfortin me alternatively..angel also confused...chanchal left..evry1 in sad state..Ridhi's happy she left...me doomed fr boards..i dnt think ny tchr wud b better dan her now to teach accountancy....tanya umm i dunno...tanya hates suju..me cnt stnd suju..angel HATES suju...all in all no one liks suju...me got new hair do nd cut hair last week...no one evn notices..me disappointed...Himanshu's stayin in same skol...me happy abt only that...Prici gives bad task fr us...to paint nd decorate d 2 notice boards in d class...me wasting studyin time doing art work fr skol...evry1 else in class throwin paint on each other while i slog to paint 2 boards...me yellin at class...science sectn copies idea..me mega-pissd...me do d same idea...now science section mega pissed...makes excuses fr stealin our idea..lol...sriya bunkin skol...shreya kinda pissd at me..shreya kinda missin Maggot boy...skol hires new tchr just fr HOCKEY...d guy seems very nice..also seperate tchr fr martial arts..me pissd at y skol decides to improve d year im leavin..." cnt do nythin else but sulk..highest ISC score in commrce 78 in skol..very demeaning..me dicouraged...Teju's hair is a disaster now...Ridhi's luv life's going down d drain...mine's probably GONE...Shashanth dancing lik weirdo..its not bad fr once..shashanth tuk dance lessons in hols..one person hu did smthin constructive!!!...Anshul..jus dumb..anshul mad at Ridhi..Ridhi mad at Anshul..Angel is playin "chumchi" between d 2..lol...angel lafs..i laf...ridhi lafs..tanya lafs...we all laf...but wat r we lafing abt in d first place???

U see..dats y im confused..nd dats not evn half of it...im a wreck... currently swearin my head off...as of now..i dnt think it cud get ny worse...mayb i said it too soon..ARRGGHH..."death..death where art thou...i pray thee to come and take me away frm my misery forever...."...wishful thinkin huh?

“Tears In Heaven” -Eric Clapton
Would you know my name

if I saw you in heaven?Would it be the same

if I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven...

Would you hold my hand

if I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand

if I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way through night and day

'Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven...

Time can bring you down,

time can bend your knees

Time can break your heart,

have you begging please...begging please

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure

And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven...

Would you know my name

if I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the sameif I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong and carry on

'Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven..."

Now thats somethin i wud labell-"a thing of beauty is a joy forever"...

Listening to "Hurt"..by Christina Aguilera...video reminds me of dad...aaww.sniff....wen will this come to an end...hw much more...

Check d pic..tuk it last nite aftr sm stupid party..traffic..in Blore...at 1:00am...!!!proposterous!hehe...i kinda likd d pic tho..tuk it by fluke...lol

Aarushi's case:Noida

I pick up today's Times Of India and the headlines read-"DAD KILLED AARUSHI:COPS-Wanted to silence a daughter who resented hi extra maritial affair"...i mean wtf???SERIOUSLY!!!i'd been watchin the news on NDTV for 2 days now..trying to make sense of it..i still havent succeeded...i dnt think i will ever understand human pychology...wtf..is this world coming too...u kill ur own kid jus cause she dint "approve" of ur affair...honestly..if dat chuth was in front of my face now i'd have told him to screw himslf...the bastard!!!uugghh...who d hell has a right to take the life of someone else...that too your own daughter..ur only 14 yr old child...damn...hasnt anyone heard of the phrase-"U cannot kill what u did not create"..nd dnt gimme that biological shit!For godsake...wats d point..he thot he'd escape???..did he get rid of his friggin guilt???...gimme a break!!!i've never really cursed any1 but i hope he rots in hell...he hammered her head and slit her throat...that was aftr he killd d manservant....d same thing...hammered head..slit throat...these are the things that make me hate the world...more so hate men...im speechless..not bcause i have nothin to say..but because i have too much...when will this shit stop...wat ever happened to happiness...???gory fkin shit.its not only the anger thans running now..its d pain..d pain of having all these things happening..nd how helpless i feel...im sorry..i really am.

Another case....girl dint die however but suffered a far more worse situation.....last month it ws a poor girl in Venice...kidnapped by her own dad wen she was 18...she was then forced to live in some dimly lit place in the basement of their aptmnts...the dad claimed she joined a cult..and ran away frm home...abt 10 yrs later he bring 3 kids home saying d daughter abandoned them..d 18 yr old kid then got sick...ws on his death bed..thats wen tests were done...and DNA showd up...cops found the girl..the girl ws 48!!!her father raped her and had 6 kids with her!!!6!!!..the othr 3 kids were living with the woman in d basement...wat a fukd up world we live in...hw does ANYONE get any satisfaction by pychotically acting out frm frustration..eew...im jus so pissed off now....my sympathies for evry girl out there who's gone thru similar experiences...i wish i could do anything to make sure those women dint die...but i promise one day i will...i will do my part to help...i swear i will by God and evrything that means anything to me...R.I.P

Random thoughts...wat is this world coming to???

I am the quintessential cynical crank...alliteration yea??The truth besides.Any of that mean nythin 2 u??No??Well den its time u pikd up somethin...its called a friggin DICTIONARY!!!If ingnorance is bliss...den tell me..y are'nt more ppl happy???...lol...
The Putridness of the whole damn thing and the bastardisation of the world has given rise to a sense of utter detestment in the inner most depths of my heart.Seemingly the general mass of ppl has taken to coersive measures to make evry1 else's life a living hell..whilst they themselves prance in the lap of luxury.Whatever happened to such things as liberty...democracy...independence...and wat one may say in "simple words",FREEDOM???